Egypt

I was reading through some of my old prayer journals. The ones where I first started seriously doing prayer journaling on a regular basis. It was like reading a heart-break waiting to happen. I know now what was coming and yet as I read I saw how sincerely I was praying to God for guidance and answers. What I was surprised about was the answers to prayer I got. I was praying specific prayers and they were answered in the affirmative.


Looking back now, I wonder why God allowed those prayers to be answered if He knew the eventual answer was going to be “No”. It wasn’t just one prayer on one day—or even the type of prayers that go, “If I see a red car then the answer is yes.” I prayed earnestly and was seeking God and I was receiving answers that seemed like all I had green lights to keep going. And now I wonder—why? I’m not angry or upset by what happened but it makes me think about the present and the future of my life today.





Are we so blind to our own thoughts, opinions, and feelings that God gets blocked? Or could it be that sometimes God has us walk down a path and experience certain things and then tells us that it isn’t where He wanted us to stay.


I think of the Israelites in Egypt. They were led down to Egypt, to preserve their lives and lineage through Joseph. But later, they were led out of Egypt. Not ever place we are led to, are we to stay.


Reading through the journals I see a young girl who is so in love with Jesus that I was willing (and eventually able) to give up what I held most dear. So I do not believe I was blocked to Jesus, but instead I believe that God led me down that path to my Egypt and then continued to lead me away from Egypt when the time was right.